I’ve started Ezekiel. For now, I’m simply reading through it, reading the study notes in my bible. Once I read through it, I’ll then read through it again. Then I will begin to break it down into smaller chunks. Chapter by chapter. Then I’ll get down to verse by verse. I will be in Ezekiel for quite some time. That’s how I prefer to do it though. I prefer to read the Scriptures until I have an understanding. Will I have a full understanding? No. Will I have what God gives me through this study? Yes.
Life is like my bible studies. Its better handled in small portions. In the recovery world, we live by that. You’ll here us say amongst ourselves, “One day at a time.” We go one day at a time because in most cases, it’s too much thinking about our sobriety past that. I’ve been sober now for over four years. It’s because Christ gives me strength to make it through each day. I’ve been clean for over three years because again, Christ gives me strength to make it through each day. This is biblical.
“So do not worry about tomorrow; for tomorrow will care for itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.“ Matthew 6:34
Christ says that it is a waste of todays time to worry about tomorrow. Now don’t think I’m saying that Jesus doesn’t want us to plan for the future. He is not a God of chaos, He wants us to have order and plans. He is saying, DO NOT WORRY ABOUT TOMORROW.
It’s so interesting. I started this yesterday morning and as I was putting thoughts together on what I was going to write, I started thinking about our car. Our car was given to us. It’s been a good car and has gotten us many places in the last year. However, the car is old and it’s age is really starting to show. It has a horrendous oil leak and power steering leak. The rear-view mirror fell off when I went over some railroad tracks due to the lack of shocks on the vehicle. There is a part, (I don’t remember the name of it) that costs $350 to replace which will help the gas mileage (currently 11.6 mpg) and help with this lugging at 60 mph. The car is only worth $200 (on a good day). Finally, the other night while driving, the drivers side window came crashing down. It’s now being held up with purple duct tape. The reason I explain all this is because Debbie and I came to the conclusion that we need a new car. So, we went through the process of filling out papers and meeting with a friend that sells cars, but unfortunately due to my stellar (sarcasm) credit, this was a no-go. I say all this to explain that finally, I just gave my car to God. I told Him that I wasn’t going to worry about it any longer. If He kept my car going great, if He gave me a different car great. Not five minutes after telling God this, my friend walked in the door and told me that he and his wife were giving Debbie and I one of their cars. This was to say the least, thrilling news! God used my friend to bless us.
See, God is in control. He holds me in His hand and He knows everything there is to know about me. He knows what I need, what I want. My hopes, my dreams. Most importantly, He knows His will for my life. Why do I need to worry about tomorrow? Today does indeed have enough trouble of its own. It’s through the strength of God that I can overcome each day. If God had not blessed us with a different vehicle, that would be okay too. The point is not that God blesses us. He’s not my ”cosmic banker“ so to speak. He’s my Savior. The point is, that I don’t have to worry about tomorrow because God has it all under control. Even when I struggle with where God is taking me, He knows. All I have to do is trust Him. I need to cast my cares upon Him, because He cares, and worry not about tomorrow, but instead trust Him with all my heart, soul, mind, and strength.
