Dan and Deb

I feel a little bit lost lately. It’s almost like being trapped in the “Twilight Zone”. Everyday is the same. Or, maybe a little closer to the movie Groundhogs Day. There seems to be this continuous cycle of “same ole same ole” with no change in sight. Most of my feelings revolve around not really knowing where God wants me. I suppose that where I am is where He wants me. If that’s the case, I’m not really sure what He wants me to be doing. In my heart, I truly want to live fully and wholly for God. I want to serve Him, love Him, breath Him in every second that I’m able to breath. Living it out is the challenge. I want to be part of the body of Christ.

When we read the gospel accounts, we read that Jesus was always moving. He never seemed to stay in one place very long because there were places to go, people to see, and things to do. He was always out moving. The times that He was still, He was alone and praying. That’s the body I want to be a part of. The body that is moving and doing. A body of action. A body of prayer.

Most people that know me, understand that I’ve only been a follower of Jesus Christ for 3 years and 7 months. We all have our own stories of how we finally came to be His disciple. It seems like I was doing more the first few years than I am doing now. I felt like there was direction in my life. I felt like He was moving me in one direction and if I stayed focus on Him, I would arrive. Now, I’m just not sure.

I know that ultimately, I will be with Him, and the direction He’s moving me in is to follow His path so that I will live with Him in the Heavens. I’m just not sure what that direction on earth is. Before I was busy all of the time. Maybe, He’s just giving me a break. A time to rest. A time to regroup. Maybe, being busy isn’t where it’s at. A friend of mine, Jerry, always says that busy stands for Bound Under Satan’s Yoke. Well, if that’s the case, who wants to be busy?!

Debbie and I are starting a new bible study together. It’s a marriage study. I think, that I’m going to focus on that study, let God continue to work and grow us in our relationship with Him and with each other, and see what He has in store for us. Waiting. Wait upon the Lord. That’s the hardest part isn’t it?